hell

i don't want to stop my fingers to write something . guess what ? i can't close my eyes to sleep heeeeeeem i just need my mom my frinds or my boy right now . mom you is everything to me, i knew it will happen but i can't do anything . mom, i wanna have a good story about family but it just dream :') . hey every night i cry, i don't want but my feel can't lie haaaaaaaaaay slowly in the fact i can lie to others i can laugh with to the max volum hahahaha behind all, i just deva who not have anything . i'm a strong girl yaaaaaaaa i see, like now i survive to school here for my dad, i will be that my dad want even i don't want. money, body, face, brain can't cover my feeling how i really miss my mom ! how i really want like others teen ! how i really want to sleep tight without cry ! it's not balance not just now it started when i was born . why must ? i'm a superhero huh, have a lot of energy to hold the big hurt ? :'(