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Truthfully idk how to start this hehe, have you ever heard about sccumb ? sccumbing for your friend ? even you knw, something in front of you is best, but you choosing the other option and you knw it worst ? I already feel it. It's reall something stupid right ?

Face the reality, hurting one person and hurting my self toooo or hurting two persons at once ? I just face the reality, I prefer choose the first (hurting my self to).

I believe good things happen everyday, ya.. good things happen even bad things happen. And I believe on a happy day we can still feel a little sad. The past teach me bout mature and patience.

Feel overshadowed by sin ? yes, it's me. sorry to hurted you, sorry has made you fly and fall within a few minutes, I did it to my firend . And if you wanna knw it hurting me toooo!I knw you're best but not for me :)

start with the boy outside of the Deutsch class. Hey I like you, oh God its big struggle. Leave me first... and I thought isn't good boy but I can't lie, I still need you! And for this momment big thanks to my past who teach me to be mature. and until someday I've this boy and I love him so much.

Not like what I think, you're so child, selfish, never see me, never see my eyes what I feel, never need to knw reall bout my heart. I accepted you as you are! I love you even you hurting me even you make me cry. Hallo I'm too stupid ? Hallo I'm wrong ? you had been tasted my patience, just because you're every reason, every hope and every my dream.

I have to sccumbing (again) I'm not use my emotional, its hard..but I want someday if God separate us you say " because of she I changed" . maybe you seeing me smile, but sometimes it just bullshit. I knw the boys will be boys, they dn't have good respect. But can you try to be more respect ?

never promise bout relathionship in the future, I want all my days to be with you so it will be the greatest for me! If you knw how hard to be with you, how patiently I am ? It just because I love you. happines doesn't come itself, our own that makes happines. That's way I stay, I keep this love, and loving you with pleasure.

- Muhammad Ilham Ramadhan, 23!